A restless heart of mine

hmm.. its been a long time since i last posted here... well everything is going fine now.. after the "BREAK" incidence everything is going back to normal.. im having a good time now having no one just loving myself and all.. i dont know why but its a great feeling.

althought.. theres this aure of evasiveness where I cant seem to stare/look/get near her. damn better stay away for now.

HEart stopping action.

aww... the only thing i felt. why oh why am i like these am i that biiter to someone or just tired of sharing love over and over again. i never know myself up to now. i dont know how to say things with an ease on my tounge.. i never knew what will i do to the ones i hurt the most.. mostly i just want to make every body happy not minding those who are being hurt. i want to stop every nonsense i am saying now but i really dont know how to stop a relationship that i built from love.. i want it to end in happyness and filled with love... i dont want to hurt anyone i just want freedom.


Im sorry but this is what i thought... life is much happier with you as my friend not at enemy or anything else bad.. freedom is freedom when life is surrounded by happiness...

Lab

new and old

what can i tell u guys today... summer vacation has full of surprises you wont notice the changes . something new or old just keep on coming your way. i mean like new friends i meet in our camp. old friends that will suddenly pop - up right in front of your face.. haha! new love life.. well i guess my love life today is not that juicy like before.. oh i miss thos days! well you cant blame time if you force yourself to have gf in an early year ryt? guess the NEW generation today have this strong will to pursue on having an early relationship. not like the old days where even touching the hand of girl os very off limits. haha! i sound like an old man. well for the information on this blog im just 17 turning 18 on may 12, 2007. . . damn! im becoming old. hmm i dont mind comments that will be posted as a reply. i dont care if you dont like what im telling you coz, im just sharing my feelings today. it so hard for me to well uh CRY? not because its in the quote "boys dont cry" it's just i made a vow after a very serious sin i did.. the vow of not crying again.. it's very hard! to express it ou.. so it is just stuck inside me.. oh how painfull. well i guess im already used to it.. and liking the feeling of being hurt inside.(not outside coz im thin LOL). well i guess my sharing today will end here. ciao guys.!